1849

In 1971 I was a huge admirer of Canada and all things Canadian. All their wide open spaces were very attractive to a teenager suffocating in a dying industrial city in the eastern US. I bought an LP (a long playing vinyl album for those unfamiliar with the term) produced by a jazz-rock fusion group (out of Toronto, Ontario, Canada) called Lighthouse. The Number One hit from the album was titled "One Fine Morning". Thank you Skip Prokop for such a joyful and uplifting 5 minutes 11 seconds! "All the universe will smile on us."

Another song on the album was less ebullient. "1849" is a tale of the gold fever which guided the hopes of 400 people in 61 wagons heading to California. Those adventurers set out in confidence "that their fortunes would appear." When I traveled west in 1988 it was less rustic and I followed paved roads, not fur trapper trails. The song warned of the cost of chasing riches. "No one thought their greed for gold would change their lives that way." I wasn't seeking gold in Arizona, unless wide open spaces was my gold. 

Those seekers in 1849 soon found out that dreams must change. I never became the great long distance endurance horse race rider in the Arizona sun that I envisioned.

Instead I found fulfillment in just being in God's creation. I loved the mountains and the deserts. Those wide open spaces filled our years with adventure and appreciation.

It's been 3 years since I lost my companion. The song lyrics describe a pretty dress for Sarah, later used to bury her sister Fay. My sweetheart, my husband, was buried in camouflage hunting clothes under the desert sun. There is loss across the years whether you stay put or challenge the world someplace new.

The song ends with a refrain: "A promised land in 1849." There's toil and pain everywhere, no escaping that. But everywhere I place my foot is a promised land to me from my God.

Incident at the Daisy Belle Saloon

 Way, way back in 1970, I wrote a short cowboy tale for English III, 10th grade, chock full of tired motifs or recurring themes from Westerns I'd likely watched. I was influenced by Roy Rogers and Bonanza!  It doesn't make a whole lot of sense (give me a break, I was just 16) but here you go for your Old West Days enjoyment. 

    It was a long dusty ride. So I wandered into the Daisy Belle Saloon and ordered myself a tall, cold beer. That first gulp tasted mighty fine. I noticed the muddy smudge I left on the glass. Then I looked up at the frightful reflection I made in the mirror behind the bar. Five days growth of beard and dirt grinned back at me.

    Then it occurred to me to check my pistol since strangers in town could be mistaken for anybody who ever had their picture on a wanted poster. The gun was clean as a whistle but I was running low on ammo. I took another gulp out of the glass, then realized something odd was going on. The bartender had stopped drying the glass he was holding and was looking rather intently toward the door. I looked up to the mirror because I was too darn tired to turn around. A man stood silhouetted in the doorway. His manner was not too friendly. In fact, he was ready to draw! A hush settled over the barroom. I began to wonder if that dude might have seen me bump off that old man in Stevetown and had come after me. My fears were soon alleviated when the mysterious man drew and shot the bartender full of lead.

    As I learned later, the Daisy Belle was a union men only saloon. It seems this Virginny boy didn't really appreciate that because the Daisy Belle was the only bar in town. So I retrieved my nickel for the beer and left the dizzy Daisy Belle for safer country. 

A Farewell To Arms 1971

 This has nothing to do with the Double Barrel Ranch, but it's my blog. (Not following the rules again.) 

 When I was 17 years old, I had to write a critique of "The Style" of a book we had read for 12th grade English class. Even at this age, my iconoclastic tendencies were apparent as I'm sure that 99% of my fellow students were writing approvingly of the famous novel's presentation. I begged to differ:

2 December 1971 "The Style"

"The characters in A Farewell To Arms by Ernest Hemingway are not very active. There are many pages devoted to how Frederic Henry did nothing. How he spent his time in the hospital, how he did nothing in Montreux, how he did nothing while waiting for Catherine to have the baby, etc. There was a lack of action in the book. And there doesn't seem to be much of a reason behind the book, other than to tell a nice (or not so nice) story. There should have been more life to the the novel. Less conversation and more description would also help. Hemingway's style seems to be to let the reader guess who is talking and what the listeners think of the speaker's words. Very seldom did he use the words "Catherine asked" or other identifying and descriptive phrases. Also I searched and searched and I was unable to discover the fate of Barto, one of the guys with the ambulances. He just disappeared from the pages without a word. This is kind of ridiculous. If his style includes such mistakes then he should never have been published. Not once does the book mention anyone's age. His style does not take into account any facts. What year is it? Your guess is as good as mine. 

When writing is vague and uncertain and the story line is weak (the weak love affair), it is boring. If it didn't have a war going on with a threat of danger, the novel just wouldn't hold water. 

A lot of symbolism will escape most people so it is better to be straightforward and be sure the reader understands. That, I believe, is the main object of a novel - to get something across. And if it is vague, shrouded in symbolism, full of guesswork, contains mistakes, and is spotty in action - then it needs a lot of work. I haven't the faintest idea why the book sold."

The teacher's notes on my critique are interesting. She asked why it was important to know people's ages? Why was the year important? People disappear from our life and we never know what happened to them happens in real life. She said maybe I couldn't grasp the story line? And perhaps I didn't know why the book sold because I just didn't appreciate it? Umm, yes?

I guess today, 53 years later, and having never read another work by Ernest Hemingway...I will have to say that the style of including character ages, year, stories with things resolved are all important to me. Is it a teenager or a 40 year old? Is it WW1 or WW2? And to have a meaningful conclusion to a story, etc. are all important to me. The assignment was to critique the style not to highly praise the best selling author like a million others have done. There was no grade indicated on the paper. Today I would have explained that appreciation of "style" is subjective. Maybe I should have left out the last sentence saying I couldn't understand why the book was ever sold? Yes, that was maybe a bit over the top. But give me a break, I was 17...and a budding iconoclast!

As the Petals Fall

 This has been a time of change here on the ranch. After my house was stunningly painted, I got a new sliding glass door and then 4 new windows. The new glass is double pane and has tint to reduce solar gain through it. The previous glass was single pane; you could get sunburn through it! This is nice tight little house now. 

 Anyway I got the brick for laying a wall behind my wood burning stove. The wood burner is just for ambiance or a power failure. I’m not trying to heat my house all winter in the desert with wood. It is possible because of the forests on our mountains, but for me at this time, eh, it’s ambiance.

Winter has been seasonably cold and my natural gas bill reflects that. It’s nothing like the northern climates though. And I don’t heat my house to bikini temperatures. Remember I’m the one who winter swims.

Speaking of swimming - the local gym with the indoor pool saw me the other week. I haven’t been in my 40ºF pool since early this month. I really should…

My large pot of geraniums has continued to flourish. Pink and deep red flowers. I carry in outdoors in the morning and inside at night. The colorful flower petals drift off on the floor. It makes me smile, like when they throw flowers on the path of the bride going to the altar to be joined to her beloved. It’s just geraniums in my hallway, but it just seems more significant. Like being blessed by nature. I’m such a romantic.

Late Autumn 2023 Thoughts

The autumn season is marching on and soon will draw to a close as the winter chill increases every day. 36ºF/2ºC this morning. 

My house exterior stucco was repaired and the house painted green with white trim. I love the color.

Shortly after this expense, my chronically misbehaving clothes washing machine quit. After 10 years of battle - I give up. I’m going to haul it to the dump. I bought an attractive shiny grey replacement that is a front loader, instead of the top loader. So far I am very pleased with this new LG washer. If my opinion means anything, don’t ever buy a Crosby top loader. It warrants many unprintable words.

The orange marigold flowers are still blooming their hearts out and my girlfriend gave me a pot of mostly pink geraniums. Together they make a striking display as you approach my front door. This is especially true as the native plants fade away, their small leaves dropping unnoticed. Only the Barrel Cactus fruit ripening to yellow brings color to the dull green and brown/grey landscape of these short days.

Soon I’ll be buying nice Christmas cards to mail to my friends and family. Even as the days are shortening in the northern hemisphere, at least the mailbox will be brightened by messages of hope and cheer. There’s likely not going to be any snow for me to dash through here in the desert, but the mountain snowstorms will play out above me on Mt Graham. I will marvel at the wind and the play of cloud and sun. It is amazing that mankind has survived all that nature can dish out to us, especially when you hear how people get so seriously troubled by the inconsequential. I like to count my blessings, and not the slights.

Prepared For Heat and Storms

It’s been a long hot summer. I didn’t intend to be here through the torrid days here in eastern Arizona’s desert, but circumstances kept me on the Double Barrel Ranch. I made the best of it. My swimming pool has been a godsend. Unless you were raised in a hot climate, when you move there as an adult, I think your blood can’t reestablish a homeostasis in the high heat. I have no trouble with a climate that throws below freezing temperatures at me. Of course I was raised on the shore of Lake Ontario waving at Canada across the waves.

On August 7, 2023, a very destructive rain and hail storm struck. 3 1/2 inches of precipitation in a little over an hour.

 Siding and roofs and vehicles and anything outside not made of armor sustained damage. But the worst thing I suffered was my pristine blue pool was polluted by backed up runoff. The hail clogged the natural slopes which normally safely carry away the deluge. It was quite shocking to check the water quality after the storm and see this.

 After monsoon rains I generally add some muriatic acid and shock chemicals and all is well. Instead I had to drain, power wash and refill the whole 8000 gallons. 

But the native desert plants have taken it all in stride. They haven’t survived in this harsh climate for millennium by being frail. Flowers are everywhere. 

Several neighbors have substantial property damage. I fortunately had minimal damage to my house and my truck. I guess they were both built with armor for that once in a lifetime storm. Kinda reminds me of Paul’s letter to his friends in Ephesus, in modern Turkey. Chapter 6, verse 13 “ …put on God’s armor so you will be able to resist the enemy in time of evil.” If you wait until you are in the storm, well, it’s kinda getting too late, right?

Sonoran Desert Ocotillo

Ocotillo is native to this area. But they aren’t common on the Double Barrel Ranch. I suspect many years ago they were harvested and utilized for their formidable branches to make excellent fencing. We brought them back in our “cactus garden” in front of the house and they have self seeded.

April has been a month without any measurable rain. But the Ocotillo faithfully produce their flowers, waiting patiently for the pollinators. The branches only sprout leaves during the warmer months when there is sufficient rain. And when the rain goes elsewhere, the leaves are shed. This sprouting and shedding can occur more than once a year. 

So here are these naked, thorn-studded branches, waving in the wind, with their glorious color.

April Anniversary

 The ranch is suddenly in a heat wave: a few days ago it was 29º and I had concern for my bare water lines. Yesterday it was 93º. The mesquite trees are leafing out and traditional stories say the mesquite waits until all threat of frost is gone before it leafs out. Sounds sound to me! 

Today is the 35th anniversary of my permanent arrival in Arizona. (We had come from Mansfield, Pennsylvania. We left on April 1 and had many adventures but that's another story.) Somehow I never took a photo of my caravan but we pulled into the Double Barrel Ranch with an Oldsmobile sedan pulling a 20 foot travel trailer, and a GMC 3/4 ton pickup hauling a horse trailer with 2 horses. I drove the truck, and Fred drove the Olds with his 18 year old daughter as co-pilot. There was nothing here. Not even a place to pull in. Taming the wilderness and building a homestead began. And there on our land were those two Barrel Cacti, growing side by side.

Addendum to - the Long, Long Trip.

 My Ultimate "Insurance" Policy

For those who don’t know, I have been a born again Christian for many years. That “event” was basically a dedication to living my life as God directs. He gave us the Bible as a guide book. I will admit to often being more taken with secular subjects than the Bible. Things written prior to 1960 seem so archaic! But with the guidance of many teachers, preachers, and of fellow Christians - I have attempted to follow the lifestyle that Jesus laid out for us 2000 years ago.

During trials such as the “Long, Long Trip”, I made reference to saying a prayer or other oblique mentions of my faith. This was done to not offend non-believers who might have found my story entertaining. But it is not the whole truth. I depend 100% on the Lord to guide my steps. Things aren’t always rosy. The famous psalm mentions walking “through the valley of death.” That is not a walk in the park! But God promises to be with me.

I tell my story for others to see how I handled life handing me multiple unpleasant, potentially dangerous, situations. If we do not share our stories, then what good are the lessons we learn? We try to insulate ourselves from catastrophe. We buy insurance policies, we do maintenance, we seek advice from counselors. But one day I found myself alone on a cold and lonely road. Yet I kept smiling. I had no doubt, no doubt, that I was in the loving hands of my Creator. I hope you have this assurance also.

Long, Long Trip, Part 5. The Conclusion.

 

I am now back to my friends in the Pelican State. The dog gets a great new home. The friends get to play tourist in Louisiana and Texas and then they head back to Arizona, going right through little isolated Van Horn, Texas. The repair shop finally notifies me late on Jan 10th that the truck is “fixed,”  the $400 worth of parts installed. I pay the bill over the phone. My girlfriends volunteer to pick up my truck on Friday morning Jan 13th. T.A. becomes an official member of W.W.D.D.P.A. (Women Who Drive Diesel Pickups of America) which is a society I just made up. She’s a brave lass! This is great timing. It means I did not have to travel six hours back to Texas myself to get my truck.

Everything goes well for 262 miles/420 km.

The engine quits and T.A. glides off the interstate highway into a large parking area in New Mexico at the Continental Divide. It is an absolute miracle - the timing of it - that she is able to safely get off the road. I get a phone call…

After a number of calls, my friends are able to leave my truck and continue their trip to Arizona. A tow driver picks it up later and takes it into Lordsburg, New Mexico where, surprisingly, there is a Ford Dealership, which means actual Ford trained mechanics. They reassure me that they will get a look at it soon. Soon? 

I call them every couple of days. They are just about to get to it. Again and again. Meanwhile I am getting rides, and borrowing a car in order to buy the necessities of life. Must Have Coffee! My community college night school classes begin but I can’t get there. Please don’t drop me from the class!

After an entire week goes by with nothing from the Ford experts, they finally - on a late Friday afternoon - regret to inform me that nobody on staff has the expertise to diagnose what is wrong with my truck. Why he didn’t know this within a day, I do not know. They recommend the truck be towed to my town. The best diesel shop in the area is right here where I am living. Okay. So I call for another tow, this time about 82 miles/130 km. For those keeping count, this is tow number five of the trip. The final tow is set for Monday Jan 23.

A freak snowstorm hits on Monday Jan 23. A snowstorm in the southwest! Tow truck does not leave for New Mexico as it is snowing there too. It is not a crippling storm, but where it only snows even a little bit maybe once a year, any snow is significant. I go take snow pictures and wait.

My baby, or my beast (nickname depends upon my mood) truck finally arrives in my town on Tuesday Jan 24, about three weeks later than I expected. And it sits in the shop parking area. And it sits. The diesel shop is slammed with work. As is the case in many professions, there are not enough people to fill the jobs. Finally the main issue is identified. Parts are ordered. Contributing issues are also identified but these can be addressed later. 

It is a humbling experience to live far outside a town and have no transportation available. Although people continually offered me rides or to loan me their vehicle. I have so many wonderful friends! But I kept busy getting a lot of material ready for the landfill and one just doesn’t load up a borrowed vehicle with refuse! Anyway, it had been 50 years since I had been without ready access to transportation. Oh, a day here and there, of course. But this was now 4 weeks without my truck. Thank goodness so much commerce can be transacted online. Cat food and cat litter came to my door by FedEx and UPS. Happy cats are a priority! 

The day my baby finally came home and finished its trip from NY to AZ was February 2nd. I can go to my college night classes. I can go to the dump. I can go buy groceries, coffee even (!), just anytime I want, day or night. I can just step out my door and jump in the truck and go anywhere I want, whenever I want. As long as I can afford the fuel! This is a freedom I will never take for granted, ever again. The experience has been challenging, I applied much patience. But the joy of being blessed by strangers, and friends alike, it was just priceless. May they all reap outsized rewards in return!

For any mechanics out there, the main culprit was an ICP sensor. Once the other nagging issues are taken care of next week, the diesel expert believes I will have a dependable truck for at least the next 100,000 miles. I certainly hope so. It is a wonderful beast! Even if it did give me some grief - and a long, long trip!